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Tuffbucker

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As many of you already know, my wife and I lost our first child last December. Tommorow, 12-29-05, will mark the one year anniversary of the passing of my daughter Maddisyn. It's hard to believe that a full year had gone bye. WHen my daughter died, I didn't think I'd make it another day, let alone another year. Although it is still hurts, each passing day gets a little better. I know that the reason is because my wife and I have received amazing amounts of love and support.

I guess thats part of the reason I am making this post. I dont think I ever really properly thanked all those who extended their love and support. The kind words, thoughts, and prayers extended by members of this website, were extremely helpful during our time of sorrow and mourning. I hadn't read my original post ("The Best and Worst Week of My Life"), since I posted it last year. As I read it, it brought tears to my eyes. The kind words of support from complete strangers, was unbelievable. There were also many who continued to "keep tabs" on my wife and I throughout this year. It never ceased to amaze me the emails, PM's, etc. that I received throughout the year from people on this site, just asking how my wife and I were doing. I cant thank you enough for your support. People like Browtine and his wife have been awesome friends to my wife and I. And even though many might not believe it, Moosie went above and beyond many times, by sending flowers, and sponsoring my daughters obituary/guestbook online for a year. It was little acts of kindness from people like him and many others (family and friends), that helped us get through such a trying time. Thank you again...all of you....I will never be able to say that enough.

Now onto the good news, tommorrow, my wife and I will bring our fist born son into the world. Donovan is scheduled to arrive tommorrow afternoon via C-section. We could not be happier. I know his "big sis" had a hand in him coming tommorrow, especially since he's not due for a few more weeks. I will be sure to post pictures, etc. as soon as I get them.

Thank you again for everything.

SCOTT
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"All I have seen, teaches me to trust the CREATOR for all I have not seen."

---EMERSON
 
I have been sitting here wanting to respond but I cannot find the words. I remember the passing of your daughter and I remember praying that God would give you, your wife and your family strength every day.

I am so happy to hear that your son will be born tomorrow and pray that he is healthy. I am sure that God will have his in his hands as he delivers him to you and your wife.

Drum
 
Scott,

My prayers are with your wife and you tomorrow with the arrival of your new Son. Having never lost a child yet, don't know what the both of you have gone through, but have had to deal with other family members this year.
My granddaughter gave birth on Christmas morning to another son and that is a blessing to everyone in the family.

This will be a joyful time for the both of you and we will keep you in our hearts and God is looking over both of you.

Brian
 
Thats a real sad deal for your family.

So sorry for your loss.

Moosie has always been a stand up guy. I got no problem with him.
 
HANG IN THERE TUFF!!!

THATS GOT TO BE PAIN MOST OF US HAS NEVER ENDURED!!!

HOPE THE NEW ONE & YOUR WIFE IS WELL!!!

POST US A PICTURE OF YOUR NEW HOLLIDAY BABY IF YOU CAN???

THE ONLY bobcat HOPEING ALL ARE WELL!!!
 
Scott
Hard to believe its been a year. Hardly a post of yours goes by when I don't think of your loss and hope you two are doing well. Thats cool news about the new arrival. Best of luck. May your time in the mtns be spend being closer to your daughter and the big guy upstairs.

Yelum
 
Cant imagine how tough that must have been for you two.
Its all uphill from here, and as you have found, you can and will go on. God Bless
 
Tuff, I can't even to begin to imagine the pain of losing a child. We lost my father last year just before Christmas but pales in comparison to a child. One of our best friends lost their 18 year old son to Crones (sp) disease just a couple months ago. I guess what I'm trying to say is we are all vulnerable to lifes up's and downs and it's how you handle those situations that makes you the person that you are. I know in my heart that GOD has a plan for all of us and one day we will be rewarded. I just want to thank you for allowing us to be a part of your life when life was very hard for you and your wife.

Maddisyn is and always will be a big part of your life. Congratulations on your expected son we will all be waiting to hear when this little miracle is born. The following is a poem I have carried in my wallet for atleast 25 years. When life has worn me down I pull it out and read it. I hope this helps.

Sincerly, Keith Fish.

One night a man had a dream.

He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. he noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that at the worst times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. How could you leave me when I needed you the most?"

The Lord replied " My precious, precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of suffering and when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried
you."
 
ITS HEART WRENCHING KNOWING ABOUT YOUR LOSS, WE FEEL FOR YOU. AT THE SAME TIME YOU HAVE A NEW BLESSING ON THE WAY, WE PRAYED FOR YOU. HOPE THE NEW YEAR BRINGS JOY TO YOU, AND YOUR FAMILY. YD.
 
I can't express how excited I am for you man. Just imagine the love you will show that little guy. Your daughter will forever be with you. Good luck. I wish you and your wife well.


Josh
 
Congratulations on your son arriving tomorrow. Each child is a blessing, no matter how long you have them, they are all special.
I hope God continues to heal you over your loss, and at the same time bless you with your new son.
Peace from above tuff.

Lien2
 
Scott,

I think everyone here will agree, we are glad you are making it through. Congratulations on your son. We look forward to hearing about his 1st outing with dad, and seeing pictures of his 1st critter.

Blair
 
Tuff,

The spring before your daughter was born my wife and I welcomed our first child, a 3lb preemie son. He spent a month in the NICU and came home at 4 pounds with no complications. When I read your post last year it brought back the terrified feelings I had when I saw my child struggling so soon into this life. I went home that night and held him tight in my arms for hours. I can't begin to understand the pain you and your wife have gone through nor do I want to. You will be with her again and I am sure that knowing this has helped you through. I can only say thank you for allowing us to share this time with you and congradulations on the birth of your son. I hope he and your wife are doing well. I look forward to pics of the new addition.

Andy
 
I wasn't on the website last year to read your post on the loss of your precious child. My eyes filled with tears as I gazed upon her picture. I have a three-old girl (Grace) and twins on the way and I can't imagine what you've gone through. Only you can know the true pain of losing a child.
All I can know is appreciation for mine after reading what you have shared here today. Thank you for reminding me of the gift of life in our children. I'm praying for you, too.
I'm warmed to the soul to read of all the support you got from a bunch of deer hunters- thanks to all of you @MM.com.
I can't wait for Jesus to come back and end all this pain.
"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will by no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." Revelation 21:3-5
The Christian
 
Tuff,

Thanks for sharing your story with all of us. It helps us remember what really is important in life.
I can begin to understand your pain. I have spent innumerable days at Primary Childrens Hospital with my son. He has been fighting a disease for his whole life. On three different occasions we nearly lost him. Twice I have seen him "pass on" right before my eyes. It was only God and the miracles of modern medicine that brought him back. So while I am very blessed to still have him I do understand your pain to a degree. Hang in there. Remember that while this life is hard to understand all will be made right in the next life.
Congratulations on your son!! I pray he and your wife will be healthy and happy.
 
"And even though many might not believe it, Moosie went above and beyond many times, by sending flowers, and sponsoring my daughters obituary/guestbook online for a year. It was little acts of kindness from people like him and many others (family and friends), that helped us get through such a trying time."

Bud, You know when it comes to Stirring chit on the net I'm the King of words.... When it comes to personal feelings I get tounge tied. Funny thing is we still need to meet, Scott :) (I'm scheduled to come to Browtines next month) I'm sorry still to hear of your loss and I can't say I know what it's like but can partially imagine the feeling I'd have if I lost one of mine. They ARE my life. You've handled yourself well and like always, if there is ever anything you need, ever, miles don't matter....... I'm just a call away.

Peace to you and your Family this season............


  • [*] -Moosie
~~If you're going to walk on thin ice, Ya might as Well DANCE !!
WALK the TALK, Or shut the HECK UP !!
 
"The Crown Without The Conflict"

I've never heard that before. I know that's got to bring a lot of comfort to your family.

I'm sure your new son has been well taken care of by his sister.

I hope everthing goes well with his birth.

It's pretty neat to hear all of the great things some have done for you and your family. There truly are some special people here.

Wishing you the best! Paul
 
I'm so glad to hear that things have worked out for you and your wife. Great to hear! Thanks for letting us all know and good luck with the new addition!

NvrEnuf
 
I wasn't on this site a year ago but my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I couldn't imagine what it might feel like to lose one of my children. congrats to you and your family on the new addition of your son.




sincerely,

anthony, jessica, rylan, madison and abby.
 
Tuff - Your story makes me wonder what I have done to deserve the blessings I have. Three healthy and robust children without any problems or loss. I bet the good Lord knows that you are a stronger man and are able to bear the trial. Keep her in your heart always and you she will be with you always. Congratulations on your son and my God bless you and your wife to be great parents. Post the pics of your boy ASAP! You will be in our prayers.

Garrett Oleen

ROY
 
Tuff

"Trust in the living God, who gives us richly all things to enjoy"-- 1Timothy 6:17

We are praying for you and your family.

God Bless,

Skeet
 
Tuff,

Thanks for sharing the good news of your expected arrival. We hope that everthing is doing well and we will keep you in our prayers that all will work out great with your new boy.

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I had to call my wife to the computer as we reread last years post together, and now the wonderful news of your new son! Our hearts go out to you and your wife and we can't wait for your first pictures.

Steve
 
Tuff,

I don't post alot but I remember your terrible loss last year. I am a single father of 2 small boys and couldn't imagine the loss you have suffered. I believe that the man upstairs only gives us what we can handle. He has greater things planned for you and your family. Congratulations on the arrival of your new child. A real blessing. Happy New Years and God Bless.
Gary
 
Tuff:
From newcomer: my eyes teared up reading your post, too. Incredibly tough loss - but you've weathered it, and now a new blessing. She's up there watching over him. Congratulations.
 
Tuff,

I have been on this websight for years yet somehow I missed your original post.When I went back and read it I was left with tears in my eyes.I'm not good with words when it comes to stuff like this,I am sorry for your loss,and excited for you and the arrival of your new child.
 
Tuff, Congradulations on your new son. Your family deserves some happy times. May you all have a great New Year. Dale
 
Tuff,

Had my kids come read this post and told them all I love them. You and your wife and little guy are in our prayers tonight.

Dub
 
I had a rough day at work, came home, read your story and put my life back in perspective, thank you for sharing. I am always amazed at the strength people have facing adversity. Congratulations on your son.
 
Scott,

As when you posted your first post last year, I called my wife to read this post. It just hits too close to home for us.

You, your wife and family are in our prayers. I lost my 9 month old son unexpectedly in November of 2003 due to a heart condition. Burying my son was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.

My wife and I gave birth to another son in March, 2005. I know the emotions you are experiencing. All I wanted was that baby boy to come out healthy!!! God is good....My son is now the same age as my son that passed away and to date no signs or symptoms of the heart condition that took my other son.

May God be with you and your family tomorrow and please let us know how everything goes!!!

Kalen
 
This post puts a lot of things in perspective for us all. It reminds us what really matters in this life. Tuff, your experiences have given you a unique perspective from which to look at life and your little ones. It is obvious that this little boy will be cherished and loved every moment of every day. God bless your family and please let us know how mom and baby are doing.
 
Thank you everyone for your kind words and prayers....now for an update.

Donovan was born yesterday (12-29-05) at 5:22 pm. He weighed in at a whopping 8 pds 6 oz., even though he was 2 1/2 weeks early! He gross scores 21" inches (with a conserative tape :), and has a ton of dark hair!

Mom and baby are both doing awesome. I will post some pics soon.

Thank you again

SCOTT
 
Thanks for the update, God has definately carried you through and given you another blessing. Though we will never know your pain we can experience your joys, congrats on the new one!
 
Hey Scott,

I am sorry for your loss. I lost my mother to cancer this year and I can understand your grief. its as if life doesnt care and just keeps going while your heart is broken. When you get your new son hold him high and bless him. You are a lucky man. Star
 
Give Donovan a big kingfish hug and kiss (the misses too)Hee!Hee!. Congratulation and praise God!!. Life is good.
 
So where can a feller send flowers?????????? Scott, we are all happy for you, but let your wife know that we are equally as happy for her.


---------- Congratulations --------------------


Blair
 
Tuff,

Congrats. on the birth of your son.

I'm at a loss for words in regard to your daughter. I wish you and your family the best.

Vince Martinez (Colorado)
 
LAST EDITED ON Dec-30-05 AT 01:21PM (MST)[p]WOW! 8lbs, 6oz. 21" No ground shrinkage there!:)

So happy to hear both mom and Donovan are doing well A very happy day indeed.

Steve
 
Tuff,

I'm new to MM, so I didn't read your first post until last night, it took me by surprise to say the least. I tried to post three different times but was at a loss of words and didn't want to until after you gave a update. I know the last year has more than likely been the toughest year of you and your wifes life. I'm glad to here you both are still together and both have enough love for life not to let the loss of your first child make you GIVE UP on each other. I know because my wife and I lost our daughter Casey Ann alittle over ten years ago, she was three days old.

Casey was our second child, Robert was 18 months old when she was born. My world was turned upside down and I was encased with hate. My hate was not for the doctors, my wife or anybody I could hit or see for that matter, but for a God that let this happen to my wife and I. I stopped praying and gave up on the God that gave up on me.

Alittle over a year and a half later my wife gave birth to our second daughter, Abbie Lee. It wasn't until Abbie was about three years old when I was putting her to bed one night that I finally knew why the God that I had trusted for so long took Casey away from us. If he hadden't we would have never known Abbie Lee. The hate finally went away and I cried and cried that night with Robert and Abbie. My wife still to this day isn't close to God as she was before but maybe some day.

Your family was in my prayers last night.
Tony
 
wow, I guess I missed that one last year, sorry and congratulations at the same time. Gotta love the eternal family plan. Sounds like all is well with the new one!
 
LAST EDITED ON Jan-01-06 AT 04:36PM (MST)[p]I almost missed this post......

First off Scott, Its your wife and you that have been the great friends.. Always setting the positive example and showing that something positive can come from somthing potentially negative.. Thanks, and I am glad everything with Donavan worked out so well. I am sure big sister had a hand in his successful delivery and it was good to see everyone is doing great.

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Later, Brandon
 

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